Poetry
Sounds of silence
In the darkness of the night,
The noise is deafening.
The silence in the air,
Breeds so many sounds
The hushed rush of a nearby city,
It travels over miles.
It's the echoes of thousands of people
Driving their cars, making their mark,
Building their lives in dirty concrete.
Frogs and crickets sing me their song
It sounds like an opera with no conductor.
They play their impromptu vigil,
Of unorganized noise.
As they do every night,
It's a show that never closes.
I sit back and listen.
I listen to the sounds of my cigarette.
It crackles and hisses with every breath.
The amber glow gets brighter.
And I exhale the grey swirling, twirls
They dance as they shine in the moonlight.
And disappear around the old brick walls.
My eyes are getting tired,
The lids are getting heavy.
Drifting into sleep
Listening to the hum in my ears.
The sounds of silence.
Emma Korhonen 2007
Lost girl
It was the silence,
The silence, that frightened her.
Not knowing, nor thinking,
She marched through the door.
Where was she going?
What was she doing?
She didn't know.
So, she walked down that winding path,
That was blanketed with snow.
Dry your tears, girl.
Find your way, girl.
Let me know where you are.
I'll find you,
I'll comfort you.
Don't you fear, girl.
Find your feet, girl.
Let me embrace you.
Let me comfort you.
Hours had passed.
And still you were lost.
Still moving, not stopping,
She traveled down the path.
What were you thinking?
Where are you now?
Nobody knew.
So, we all searched all night.
But, we didn't find you.
Shine your light, girl.
Hold on tight, girl.
We are looking for you
We will save you.
Don't keep moving, girl.
Don't keep crying, girl.
Let us find you.
Let us help you.
It whispered in my ear.
I couldn't hear,
I didn't want to hear.
How can I heal myself?
I caressed the shiny blade.
I took it into myself.
I couldn't breathe,
I didn't want to breathe.
Yet somehow, I kept existing.
Every breath I took,
Made the world seem,
A darker place.
I wanted so much to give into
The cold blackness.
But, I had to face myself.
I am stronger than that.
Emma Korhonen. 2005
Just like a dream
And, silently you whispered nothing.
My eyes closed.
And I spiraled toward my own thoughts.
And I remembered.
I remembered the words you said.
The quietly uttered nothings
Just know.
Just realize this.
And your perfect face came near to me.
And, I knew what you meant.
The reverberations of your lips
On my forehead remained.
And, as I awoke,
You were gone.
And, so was I.
Like a lost memory,
I couldn't ever remember.
No matter how much I thought.
You disappeared, never to return.
Just
Like
A
Dream
Emma Korhonen 2006
The window
Solid sands, speckled with dust and rain.
Bars crossed and enclosing me within.
The grey skies feed the winds,
And colour the surroundings.
In contrast to the dullness,
Green becomes its brightest.
Winds howl, like a demented wolf.
The white shines through.
Trees silhouetted against the backdrop
of a white and grey palette.
Closer still, a leaf trembles and falls
Onto the softness of the earth.
I sit, relaxed and calm.
The light surrounds me.
Shielded from the elements,
I gaze out the window.
Gently, I press my hand onto the glass.
So very cold. Yet, such, warmth.
Emma Korhonen 2006
Singularity
She spoke without word or verse,
And, without warning, took to the sky.
O'er mountains, flourishing with colour
And snow capped peaks, with the bitterness of winter.
She remained aloft,
Until, dawn broke.
And she came back to earth.
She nestled into herself.
Her singularity was not a curse,
On the contrary, it was a blessing.
She could choose.
And dwell in her private passageway.
And watch the sun rise again.
Emma Korhonen 2006
Falling
You waited, I watched.
You listened, I touched.
You spoke, but it went unheard.
It got caught in the updraft.
And we fell into ourselves.
We tried, we failed.
I could've, but I didn't.
You went, but you stayed where you were.
I didn't try very hard.
And I fell into myself.
You're sorry, I was wrong.
You got hurt, so did I.
We don't know the future.
But we think we do.
We fell apart.
Emma Korhonen 2006
The dark forest
The sun has finally emerged,
Through the clouds of the blackened sky.
It lit up the dark forest.
The sky is finally clear.
I am free of the darkness,
The darkness that imprisoned me.
For so long i wandered through
that forest.
Stumbling, drowning in the rivers,
that I attempted to cross.
I was pulled into the undercurrent,
and smashed into rocks.
I emerged choking, bruised and bleeding.
defeated.
I would collapse on the riverbank.
Exhausted from my struggling,
I would fall into a deep sleep.
And couldn't wake for days.
Now, I bask in the dappled sunlight,
that shines through the canopy.
I draw strength from it.
I can navigate my way through
the trees
As I reach the edge of the forest.
It seems to become brighter.
Im not lost anymore.
I am finally home.
Emma Korhonen 2006
In my head
I said some things that
I shouldn't have said.
I did some things that
I shouldn't have done.
It must've been her.
It wasn't me.
I wouldn't have done it.
She wouldn't leave me be.
She was the one
who told me.
Told me to do those
terrible things.
Those terrible things
That made you run.
That made you run
so far from me.
Why did I listen?
I cannot tell.
Why did I put you through
That fucked-up hell?
If I could go back
and change the past.
I'd put you first
and i'd put myself last.
Emma Korhonen 2006
I lay on the grass.
not moving.
not thinking.
no acknowledgment.
I was just there.
unaware.
silent...
no thoughts...
nothingness...
But why?
Why was I here?
No memories.
just, nothingness.
sweet nothingness.
It's what I always wanted.
In the dark...
I felt...
coldness...
Then I awoke.
The damp ground cradled me.
I could never move.
this place was where I must always lay.
For eternity.
it was safe here.
I'm alone...
solitary...
eternally...
I want to be discovered.
I want to be loved.
I want someone to know.
I am a good person.
Someone...
Anyone...
but...
I realise...
It's never to be...
Emma Korhonen 2006
not ever
My eyes cried out for you.
But you were never to know.
I gazed at you from afar, yet so closely.
You could never see it,
And I wouldn't let you.
But, you cant see.
You wont see.
Not ever.
And still, when I look at you,
I still get that nervous sweat.
Your fiery red hair. your porcelain skin.
I almost fell when I first saw you.
I wanted to tell you.
But, you cant hear.
You wont hear.
Not ever.
So much time has passed,
You have moved on with your life.
You found that special person that makes you whole.
I secretly hoped it would be me.
I know that will never be.
But, you cant know.
You wont know.
Not ever.